I still inlove him. I still care about him. There is no bitterness. Just wished things worked out. It wasn’t anyones fault, some people are meant to be together and some people aren’t.
It’s only been a couple of days (man, it feels like it’s been forever already) since it happened, so I haven’t told anyone yet. I HATE how that people ask about him and all i can do is shrugg. I wish I can continue to not give in and I wish he can do the same. This is the best thing for us. I’m tired of getting hurt, hurting him and I’m sure he feels the same.
I was single for 4 years before him (mainly because I was out being a partying slut) but another reason was because I couldn’t find anyone worth settling down for. It’s frustrating to give E V E R Y T H I N G to someone and for it not to be enough. I think thats the main reason why it hurts.
I hate this part. When you have to find yourself alllll over again. What the hell did I even do before him? What were the things I liked? What the fuck am I going to do with myself now??
Even though I’m hurt with the situation, I’m also so eager to find myself again! I’m one of those people who like being single. I’m selfish, I like thinking of ME all the time. I like going out meeting new people, getting into new things, doing things you really can’t do when you’re devoted to someone.
So CHEERS to the new Jazmine in the new year. I can’t wait to meet you ;)
P.A. - Introduction Wun Two - Fly Me To The Moon Skit Kero One - Windmills Beats Shadez Of Brooklyn - Change (Instrumental) Damu The Fudgemunk - Beat Grinder (Madvillain ReVISIONS project) Side Effekt - The Essence P.A. - Incisimission Wax Tailor - Ungodly Fruit Diego Bernal - Diego’s Donut Dibiase - Lumberjack Samiyam - July Overdoze Recordings - Scotch Molases P.U.D.G.E. - Far And Distant Land Onra - Raw Co. Fee - Norman Bates Madlib - Raw Ground Wire Co. Fee - Kali Overdoze Recordings - Funk Me Slow Bulljun - Radio Skit Overdoze Recordings - Earth Root ELOS - DunDeals Mono/poly - Forest Dark Free The Robots - Orion’s Belt Buckle Comfort Fit - Rock Da Dam (feat. Portformat) Amon Tobin - Yasawas Shlohmo - Places Overdoze Recordings - Mystery Root Lootpack - Outro
“So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, comformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.”—-Christopher McCandless